Overly Sensitive?

I am so very sorry that I have been slacking at this whole blogging thing this semester! But I do have a pretty valid excuse as to why I didn't update at all last week... I had midterms. Last week (in the two days I have classes) I had two midterms, two quizzes, and a four page paper due. Then this week I had another midterm and a quiz today. I have been studying my butt off while still trying to balance out all the other parts of my life. I got to go home two weekends ago and had so much fun catching up with friends and spending time with my parents. I got to hang out with Chels a lot.. I miss getting to see that girl everyday! There's just something about being with family and friends that you've known practically your whole life that you just can't get with new friends. Yes, both are amazing... But I miss the crazy times I have with my Clovis friends.

This last weekend I visited my auntie in Sacramento... We went to see a movie and walked around the mall. It was fun to hang out with her and just spend time together and talk. She reminds me so much of my mom in so many different ways... It's kind of funny, but seeing her made me miss getting to see my mom everyday. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE college... and I am definitely not homesick (despite how this post sounds), but I miss certain aspects of being home.

As for the rest of life, I'm just trying to hang in there for now. Today definitely was just not my day. I was frustrated with studying and with a stupid situation I found myself in this morning. I just feel like I've been so quick to get annoyed, defensive, and upset lately. I have no idea why this is happening... But one of my friends the other day pointed out that I'm really sensitive about a lot of things. I mean I know that I'm sensitive at times, but I didn't realize just how easily upset I am until he said that. It makes me wonder why exactly God made me like this. I get sad over little things... Sometimes things that don't even concern me, like sad things happening in other people's lives. At times I wish I could just close myself off from those crazy emotions, take a step back, and just not care for a minute or two so that I can rest. I understand that I am fearfully and wonderfully made... And my Heavenly Father has a plan for my crazy emotional side; it's just incredibly hard to see what it is. I know that in time He will reveal this all to me... My heart will break for a certain thing in this world, and I will understand that He is calling me to go and act on those emotions. Maybe it's best that I view my sensitivity as compassion and understanding for others' feelings... Hopefully this will in some way help with my future career as a counselor? Only God knows... I trust that the Big Guy has got it all under control though (:

Heal my heart and make it clean. Open up my eyes to the things unseen... Show me how to love like You have loved me. Break my heart for what breaks Yours;
everything I am for Your kingdoms cause.♥