After an amazing Bible study last night we were put to the challenge to choose one of the commandments from the scripture and apply it to our lives. With my frustration from certain roommates growing daily, Spencer suggested that I choose the one that says "bless those who persecute you". And after hearing what one of my roommates is going through with her homelife, it occured to me that things are NEVER as they seem. Sure people can put up a front and hide their pain, insecurities, and suffering with a smile or harsh words, but you never really know what's going on behind all of that. After hearing that and having a long conversation with Spencer, I just decided that maybe it would be easier for me to put the feelings of annoyance and dislike aside... Those feelings were just making it worse because every little thing that came out of her mouth was beginning to bug me.
It's not just that, but it's also that last night while at Bible study I said that sometimes we don't bless other people or it's easier for us to curse others because we forget that we are all God's children. When I was thinking about this after, I realized that I don't even practice that kind of patience in my own life... I never stop myself before getting angry and think, "this person I'm about to yell at, they are just as much one of God's children as I am". It's hard to believe, the way I've treated people in the past, or the things I've said about them. I think that patience is the number one thing I've struggled with in the past few months. College has really opened my eyes to the fact that there are going to be people throughout the course of my life that I don't get along with, so obviously patience is a pretty important thing to have.
As for tonight, I'm in my dorm, literally all alone. Every single one of my suitemates is gone tonight... One went to visit her boyfriend at another school and the other 4 are going to the farmhouse for a party. So I'm staying home tonight... And it's extremely quiet, something I'm not at all used to. But at the same time, it's kind of nice to be able to hear my own thoughts for once. Oh the joys of college (:
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. -Romans 12:1-2
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